Excuses

Sitting there...in a lonely corner...watching..staring...analyzing..no one knowing your true reasons..your true story...not even being noticed ..or being noticed but ignored...watching them..with a big sorrow in your heart..with your eyes filled with tears...just thinking..looking at something..but in fact at nothing..Sadness??-no,no,  not actually...fear maybe...rejection...trying to understand your actions, your thoughts,your reactions...how come we don't appreciate the people that deserve it?why don't we stand for what we want?how come we know the results before we do the actions?how come i'm always failing in every aspect of my life?how ome i never succed in anything?how come i only make mistakes?how come i only follow the result instead of the way?how come i never make it?no matter how hard i try....i simply want to scream..but the echo is not loud enough to be heard

Facts

A certain anxiety will anguish you making you feel that your heart has been splashed with white wine..as if your thoughts are out-of-control...powdered with drains of shadows ..menacing your ironic way of seeing things...they're like in a thick fog and when you feel you get closer "pooff" they vanish into thin air...remaining just a second the question:"what if..?" and yes..i do feel misunderstood..because everyone has expectations..tones of expectations..to be PERFECT.to never  be wrong..never  have a bad day..never get angry ..never be mad..always be kind ,patient,loving....damn society

Desires

i know maybe it will sound like a clishee but everyone of us has a strong desire and a weak point deep down in their soul...we just need to dig deep enough to see it..to open the burried treasure and see what gotta see..not what you hope to find....Fear..that's my biggest drawback..the fear of failure...the fear of making mistakes...fear of hatred..fear of pain....I just can't say it outloud...that i'm afraid of making the same mistakes over and over again....At this certain point i feel lost....i can't distinguish between good and bad...right or wrong...it's hilarious that i'm soo good whith theory but i'm the worst in practising ..i can't show my feelings ....i can't even handle all this drama..i don't even know wich path to take....What's the right way?I am lost....like i've never been before...Trapped in this labyrinth of hopes dreams and faith

The way to succeed..

-E.E. Cummings once wrote: 'To be nobody but yourself- in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else- means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.'

Stamp of innocence

College..it doesn't actually have a straight definition .For me , college develops somehow a wide maturity that comes ahead from the deepest parts of our soul , by facing some "age-problems".It's called the"passing" from being a rebelious teenager to a wise adult, knowing how to face your problems and never backdown from something you trully want.
Waking  up, by walking down the avenue you will feel that the centre of your heart will get hard and you will be gringing a sense of fear and loneliness..
You will have to build-up your own self-confidence and make your bit by surviving this world without your family and your old friends.
A sudden anxiety will anguish you making you feel like screaming in as a sort of ecstasy at the thought of having too many things to do in a shortrage of time .but if you study more and party less you will make it..
For me college meant a lot..the place  I met disappointement, joy freedom and myself...I must say they've been the best years of my life , oldies but goldies..I established my path in life and if you manage to ballance your life and choices you will succeed.Trust your dreams and hopes

Enough with excuses

I won't miss all of the fighting that we always did,
Take it in, I mean what I say when I say there is nothing left
I am sick, whiskey-dick, no more battles for me
You'll be calling a trick, cause you'll no longer sleep
I'll dress nice, I'll look good, I'll go dancing alone
I'll laugh, I'll get drunk, I'll take somebody home 

I believe you have an issue I hope you'll fix it soon!